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i speak loudly
in my head
the ghosts
well they
don't scare me
at all
nothing does
anymore
honey, take my hand, let
- me show you why
the earth just keeps on
spinning around
despite the fact
that we're all
drowning and drowned,
dancing on mangled tip-
toes, and dreaming
upside-down
(i don't shiver
when their cold
skin touches
mine; i don't shiver
at all)
as your auburn hair
gets tangled in the branches
with the green green crackling
leaves, dying breath of
summer air, the sap courses
through your veins like blood
and i wonder, will i manage to
suck you dry, will i manage
to
and she said
"because you want
control," she
said "why
do you want
control" and i
don't want to
talk about
this right
now
you do not have blood
like the rest of us do, you
must be not-alive and we
don't understand that that
means you can still-die
we do not can not see
that beneath the sap
blood runs too
away from me and a
way from you,
we do not can not see
(and we say you're
the one who's
blind, just as blind
as the rest of us real
ly but somewhat different
ly)
and the earth
is still spinning around
so hold my hand
close your eyes and pretend
this is solid ground
strewn with fallen leaves
as we crush ourselves and we
crush each other we just want
to fly high up
into the
sky
feel the tree's trunk; it
is grounded rooted
beautiful and strong, but
cracks run through it
too
(open your hands and
the fireflies you caught
no matter how much
you tried to hold
on, they're gone)
in my head
the ghosts
well they
don't scare me
at all
nothing does
anymore
honey, take my hand, let
- me show you why
the earth just keeps on
spinning around
despite the fact
that we're all
drowning and drowned,
dancing on mangled tip-
toes, and dreaming
upside-down
(i don't shiver
when their cold
skin touches
mine; i don't shiver
at all)
as your auburn hair
gets tangled in the branches
with the green green crackling
leaves, dying breath of
summer air, the sap courses
through your veins like blood
and i wonder, will i manage to
suck you dry, will i manage
to
and she said
"because you want
control," she
said "why
do you want
control" and i
don't want to
talk about
this right
now
you do not have blood
like the rest of us do, you
must be not-alive and we
don't understand that that
means you can still-die
we do not can not see
that beneath the sap
blood runs too
away from me and a
way from you,
we do not can not see
(and we say you're
the one who's
blind, just as blind
as the rest of us real
ly but somewhat different
ly)
and the earth
is still spinning around
so hold my hand
close your eyes and pretend
this is solid ground
strewn with fallen leaves
as we crush ourselves and we
crush each other we just want
to fly high up
into the
sky
feel the tree's trunk; it
is grounded rooted
beautiful and strong, but
cracks run through it
too
(open your hands and
the fireflies you caught
no matter how much
you tried to hold
on, they're gone)
Literature
My Own Haunts
Down and down I tumble
Towards the end of it all
Feeling so hurt and dead
Just a constant reminder
I wish to bleed
Nothing more to carve away
I want it.
God, I crave it more.
To dig away my skin.
To hide away all the reminders
It will be no better
Probably not. But I hate myself
More for leaving proof
Dreadful memories of what I am
A deep insane mental case
Who tried to end herself many times
Now with marks everywhere
Ashamed and forever frightened
To be judged and lectured
To show off my body to my love
For even my most intimate parts are scared
This is disgusting, I should get rid of it
Hide away al
Literature
Dealing With Depression
Look at me,
Tell me everything you see.
What do you see? Are you sure you're seeing me?
I promise you that you're hardly catching a glimpse of what I really am.
If you could look deeper,
You'd see the ever-present demons in my mind,
& How hard they are to keep confined.
You'd see all the scars, hidden underneath my skin:
One for every single time I've thought about feeling the sweet release of the razor,
Or dreamed about the loving, easy, & soft embrace of death.
If you could look a little bit deeper,
You'd see the monsters blocking my heart,
& You'd see them whispering to me-
You'd hear them
Literature
Poetry,
She is stardust leaving sweet bones
in her wake. A trail of poetic destruction
conceived in verse--answering questions
with kisses. There is a hunger in her
freckled constellations, like spider webs
woven together with golden thread.
Like the wild roses she braids in her hair:
She walks backboned and head held high;
the strongest of letters on a page
left to rest in your mouth.
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this was going to be shorter and scream out i love you in a quiet, 3:44 am (when i came up with the first two lines) kind of way.
it's okay if you don't understand what i'm saying. i do. more than i'd like to, so maybe i'll pretend not to. ("there is commonly secrecy and denial (...)").
and may i just say, i am in a school where everyone pretends to cope just fucking fine and some people say they don't know anyone other than me with eating disorders and a history with self-injury and they really don't realize they're the goddamn minority. we learn and we know and a lot of us like and love, but really, this is a high price to pay for a bit more knowledge and a few more grades.
and really, people need to stop worrying about me. i'm just choosing the lesser of two evils here. it could be much, much worse.
it's okay if you don't understand what i'm saying. i do. more than i'd like to, so maybe i'll pretend not to. ("there is commonly secrecy and denial (...)").
and may i just say, i am in a school where everyone pretends to cope just fucking fine and some people say they don't know anyone other than me with eating disorders and a history with self-injury and they really don't realize they're the goddamn minority. we learn and we know and a lot of us like and love, but really, this is a high price to pay for a bit more knowledge and a few more grades.
and really, people need to stop worrying about me. i'm just choosing the lesser of two evils here. it could be much, much worse.
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Excellent structure on this, so fitting.